Day 3 Down – Oh Boy

This morning (Day 4) is not as bad as yesterday, and yet at the same time it’s a whole lot worse.

Again the 4-8 am shift was killer. Again the 8-12 is tough.

The difference is that today is Monday. I’m on my own, with no-one to know whether I snatch an extra (or extra-long) nap.

The nausea I had yesterday morning is back. Basically, right now it would be so easy to quit. It’s so freakin tempting. Thoughts are swirling around like “Why am I even doing this?” “Why can’t I be happy with 8 hours sleep a night like everyone else?” The bed is looking real comfortable now. It’s a huge struggle to stay awake, but I know I need to or this whole thing doesn’t work.

If I allow myself to have an extra nap here or there, it’ll prevent me from crashing at the scheduled time. That’s important because it’s the only way to force my body to fall asleep more efficiently, which is the long term goal here.

I think one of the hardest things for me is to give myself permission to just survive these bouts of extreme drowsiness.

I did some work through last night, so I really shouldn’t feel so bad: I’ve already done a day’s work and it’s 8:45 am.


  1. KEEP GOING!! You CAN do it!! And it is going to be so incredible when you pass this horrible stage…
    I was listening to a song this morning and thought it might reflect some of your thoughts, especially when people tell you you’re crazy…

    “It’s my life
    It’s now or never
    I ain’t gonna live forever
    I just wanna live while I’m alive
    It’s my life.”

    You can do it!! 😀

  2. Despite my knowledge that I absolutely could not do this due to my lifestyle, I am so interested to see how this works out for you.
    If it’s good enough for da Vinci, well then: bravo Signor Haydon….avanti, sempre avanti!
    I have every faith that you can accomplish this, Mike. Keep going! It will be so worth it to know what you have accomplished at the end.

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